Every
day I am reminded of how at odds I am with the culture we live in.
Don't offer me tickets to the Magic Kingdom, I'm not going. Most
things Disney, Kardashian, Vegas, mainstream TV...cause me to feel
bad...about us. I have no “Midnight Madness Sale” bug nor any
interest in the contents of the local mall. Right wing Republicans
won't see me at any of their meetings, nor will I be in the
congregation of any priest, reverend or guru claiming insider
information while passing the plate. For me, Eddie Arnold, handed
down the boring gene to George Straight who gave it to Allen Jackson
who helped spawn almost all of the country pop artists on any
mainstream radio today. All of it a big yawn. Put on some Steve Earle or Lucinda Williams for me. Please don't make me live in a “planned
community” where my McMansion is a clone of every other house on
the block and to which I sadly tie my identity, even though it is
actually owned by Bank of America. Misplaced priorities and the
pursuit of mediocrity rule here in the States. It's not so much that
we're bad people, we've just lost our way and don't know how to get
back home.
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Kid Life
Every weekday morning
for more than twenty years, my Mother drove my dad to the train
station and picked him up there again at night. Like the other
housewives, she would slowly pull into the semicircle of cars inching
forward as everyone got close to the station for a perfunctory
“goodby” or “hello” peck on the cheek. Sometimes if the train
was late coming back in the evening, I had time to put pennies on the
track, overlapping the edges, hoping they would fuse into a line of
mashed and distorted Lincoln images, post Ford's Theater images
reflected back from fun house mirrors. Dad practiced law in a
building at 5 Broadway. He was mostly fueled on Cokes, cigarettes and
stress. Mom wore dresses with pearls, just like June Clever. That was
in the 1950's and 1960's. It seemed to me like everyone on Alden
Avenue lived similar lives. Dr Ingram, next door, only had to go
downtown for his work and Mr Robinson on the other side was a paint
chemist who worked from home. He developed special paints for the
Brooklyn Bridge to keep it from rusting. He was my buddy and often
gave me little vials of mercury to play with. I swished it around in
my mouth just to feel it's liquid weight. Dr Ferguson, across the
street was a prominent entomologist who often took his son, my best
friend Donny, and I down Lawrence Avenue to Egypt Hills for a morning
of insect collecting. I had a cyanide jar to kill the bugs I planned
to mount in one of the old cigar boxes on the top shelf of my closet.
Although I knew it was poison, I often took deep breaths of the
deliciously almond scented vapors, and when I didn't die, I did it
again. Our Ford Fairlane 500, with tail fins ready to fly us off into
space, baked in the summer sun on the asphalt driveway. The metal
parts, pretending to be all innocent and shiny, waited in ambush to
burn any exposed flesh foolish enough to make contact. No seat-belts,
of course.
Those were dangerous
days when ignorance was bliss and every road trip to visit my
Grandparents in rural Virginia came complete with a kids cornucopia
filled with 22 bullets and Cherry bombs. I long for those simpler and
often more exciting times, in fact, I wish I had a nice supply of
cherry bombs right now. I would dip them in glue and BB bullets and
shove the fuse up the filter end of a lit cigarette. That would give us a
good five minutes to get away. Just like those old days, we would be long gone.
I thought
I had all of his music, long buried among those vinyl time capsules
still crammed into Orange crates I so lovingly brushed with three
layers of shellac a lifetime ago. Certainly I played the “Together”
album at least 1,000 times... just flat wore it out. Many nights
were spent blowing harp to his music, a small wooden tray with shake
and Mr ZigZag sitting nearby. But this album slipped by me somehow,
so now is the first time I've even seen it. Of course we couldn't
Google everything back then, so if it wasn't in my local head
shop/record store, The Penguin Feather, it didn't exist for me. These
days I can order it from Amazon with just a click or two of the
mouse. Those guys are nice enough to keep my credit card on file so
getting it from them couldn't be easier. In fact, it's too damn easy,
too clean and precise. I miss the hours spent pouring over the record
bins, talking about the new offerings with fellow travelers in the
old Victorian house that was the Penguin Feather. Just opening the
front door, its arthritic hinges squealing their objections at being
forced to move, multiple layers of paint flaking off the frame like
colorful potato chips, I would inhale deeply from a blast of scented air, heavy with incense, and salivate like a Pavlovian dog.
Simple guidelines to help us all avoid demonic possession...
Some
things here
are no brainers. I mean, who would go to “Marijuana & Pot
parties”? I sure don't want to get hooked on hard drugs. And I
caught a few
of these just
in time. Like the yoga class I was about to start...or an increased
effort to go more in the direction of vegetarianism. Looks like I
ducked a bullet with both of those! I never give out candy on
Halloween anyway, so that's no biggie. I dedicate that special night
to attending my advanced Vampirism meetings. Oh shit! I just saw that
is on the list too! Oh well, scratch that. This boy is not about to
open any doors to demonic possession. No way!
Gypsyon Girl...
She's
been chomping at the bit. Riding almost three months of work at the
Whaler, with a growing need to GTFU out... of the Whaler and the
country. Headed to the South Pacific this time. I ask her of plans
when the yoga workshop in
Fuji is
over...but she has none. That's what she gets high on these days, the
challenge of going anywhere in the world, parts unknown, with full
confidence that she knows how to knock on the door of
opportunity...and if that door doesn't open, I mean ASAP, she'll
smash it
down, drag that MF out by the feet and have her way with it...
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